Seriously, I don’t think anyone understands how much I love being a mum! It’s the greatest gift of all. Since I last posted on my tumblr, I’ve had a beautiful healthy baby boy names Elijah (Eli) born 13/01/2013.
I honestly never knew I had so much love to give until I met him… His just full of life and wonder!
It’s amazing how much a little person can change in just under 10weeks!

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All i’ve wanted was a mother who would love me, one i can have a real relationship with…one of those mothers you can just talk too about anything and even if they don’t always agree with what your doing still continue to support you…
But unfortunately i have a mother who really doesn’t give a shit about me, one who’s constantly reminding me how fat and worthless i am and one whom i have no real relationship with.
I’m not sure whats worse, having no mother or having one who honestly doesn’t care about you. Just simple things a mother would do for her daughter out of love and kindness is simply just an I.O.U to her…
Just really makes me sad that i have a relationship with my mother that depends what her mood is that day or how generous she feels like being…
Everyday i promise myself that i’ll never turn out like my mother and treat my children the way she treats my brother and i, that i’ll be the mother i sadly don’t or don’t think i ever will have.